Mommy's Love Goes With You PM

This was a limited edition PM and I am so happy and honoured to have it in my collection, it's not offered anymore. I saw it posted on an infant loss forum I post on. I tried to find it at our local store, but could only order it online, so ... we did LOL

I remember with tears having Ruby in my arms as they took her off of life support. We had 12 wonderful hours with her while waiting on the organ donation team to do their stuff. It was early on the Monday morning when I held my baby in my arms for the last time, encouraging her to go home to Jesus. Telling her how much I loved her and would miss her. Telling her everything I never got to say to her, apologizing for everything I had ever done wrong. I shed many tears that night and could have held her in my arms forever if they would have let me.

It was absolutely the hardest decision I have ever had to make in my life. No parent should ever have to watch as they take the tube off that is keeping your most precious thing alive. Part of me died that night with her, it's such an intense thing to have to do. You know you only have one option, there was no way she could have lived, she was brain dead ... yet ... you don't want to make that decsion, you feel like a failure, you feel like any moment she will wake up and beam a smile at you despite the doctor's testing and there being no signs of neurological function. How do you give consent and have your baby die in your arms.

I was the first one to hold her and I will always be the last one. I miss her so very much.

The Same Today, Yesterday and Forever PM

This is one of my FAVOURITE figurines that I have in my collection. It reminds me so much of sweet Roo, who she was and who she is right now.

She LOVED the beach and sand up in Muskoka when she was 1 years old. I have such fond memories of her picking up the sand, and her trying to get it off her hand. She liked sitting in the waters edge as it gently cascaded on her. I remember holding her hand as we walked the waters edge together, her looking up at me in amazement. She pointed out a little school of minnows and went ooooooo, then she clapped in excitement.

She is with our Saviour now and the little girl reminds me that that is who Ruby is now, at Jesus' feet compeletely happy and secure waiting for me.

Bless You PM

This was the very first PM I bought in Roo's rememberence. If she could find a box of kleenex around, she would be sitting on the floor pulling it out one piece of at a time.

Around Christmas time she had learned how to take the little cardboard center out and get into a fresh box of kleenex .... boy was that a mess. LOL

Kind Hearts Send Showers Of Love

This is one of our more recent ones that we have purchased in memory of Roo. It has 2 meanings for me.

1. I know that she was a very happy child when we were blessed to have her in our family. I know if she could tell you she would say that she was showered with love.

2. When I am feeling lonely, I know that she is sending love down to me in a shower of hearts, hugs and kisses.

The Girls Flower Blossom PM

The girls both have a PM with their birth month on it. They are my little princesses and these are appropriate for them. The first one is April ~ Ruby's birth month and the second one is May ~ Melody's birth month.

You Are Due For A Lifetime Of Happiness PM

This is the figurine that Melody got me for Mother's Day this year. It's pretty much me. I was pregnant with Aizen at the time and I'm always crocheting. My munchkin is pretty cute!!

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life PM

I thought I'd post and update on the Precious Moments figurines I have and why they are meaningful to me.

Ruby's favourite song was You Are My Sunshine. When I saw this figurine I knew it had to be added to our collection.

Newest Precious Moments Addition

Ruby was always the kind of child who loved to feed herself. Even from an early age she was fighting us to hold her own bottle or grabbing the spoon. We always had to have 3 or 4 spoons handy ... 2 for each of her hands, and atleast one for feeding her with.

I was really missing her yesterday and wanted to get another PM to add to my collection. In her memory hutch, I have a collection of PM's that remind me of her. I'll do another post soon with all the ones I have so far. So, this is the one we got and it reminds me of so many times when I would need to get the washcloth out to clean her ... and sometimes it was upstairs for a bath.

Happy Turkey Day!!!

Just wanted to wish all my American friends a

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!!!

I hope you all have a great day and can't wait to hear about all the yummy fixin's y'all had!!

Move Over Rubbermaid Bin .....

I posted earlier about my son having a talk with a rubbermaid bin... well move over... it's been replaced....

I was doing some scrapbooking at the computer and Aizen was on his playmat. He was making quite the fuss, I thought he had flipped on his tummy again and couldn't get his hands out. This is how I found him... reaching out trying to get an empty ziploc box. So, I decided to give it to him after snapping a few pictures... of course!!!! .... and he was the happiest little baby for about half an hour.

IT'S FINISHED!!!!

It's FINALLY finished!! I'm so excited that my Roo Roo project is done. I can't wait to get it matted and framed!! It took 57 hours total to make this beautiful picture of my sweet baby girl.

Roo Roo's 7th Plate Finished

Finished up plate 7, only 2 more to go!!

Halloween 2007

Another Halloween has come and gone. I spent most of the day wondering what Ruby would have been if she were still here with us. I made her a scrapbook page about my feelings.

Aizen was a cow. We had a hard time finding a pirate outift small enough for a 4 month old, so since I ADORE!!!!! cows, we saw this one and had to get it for him.




Melody wanted to be Snow White and went trick or treating with one of her classmates.

6th Plate Mini Mosaic Finished

Here is the latest in my crafting adventure.