Friday, December 26, 2008

My Tattoos

Had a friend asking to see my tattoos and after a search of my blog I realized that only my memorial tattoos were on here. So here they are:

My first tattoo, my butterfly.

Melody chose this little ladybug when she was 5 and that is her printing at that age. I just when the letters aren't perfect.

This is Roo's memorial tattoo that I got on her birthday last year. I miss you Rooboo.

And this is the one I got for her 1st death anniversary.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I Want My Baby Girl

It's getting closer to Christmas and the reality is really starting to kick in that my baby girl is missing yet another Christmas with us. It hurts so bad to be getting the presents ready and there is nothing for her to unwrap on Christmas morning. I just want my baby girl back so badly. She would be 3 1/2 this year and I wonder what she would have liked. What would she be interested in? What would she have wanted to get her brother and sister? Would she be talking by now and telling me how happy she was with her presents?

I miss you sweet Ruby and wish you were here so badly. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Monday, December 8, 2008

Dearest Mommy Poem

I wrote this poem tonight and wanted to share it with you. It's our 2nd Christmas without sweet Ruby and I miss her terribly. If you want to see the wording better, just click on the image and that will make it bigger. Thank you so much for all of your prayers my friends, we need them, it's a struggle everyday just to get out of bed and function. I feel like I am "going through the motions" once again.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Sucky Grief Night and Start To My Day.....

that's all I have to say... bleh, sucky grief day!! =(

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Our Christmas Tree

Yeah!! It's finally December and time to put up the Christmas tree. I'm enjoying Christmas this year. Last year it was going through the motions so that the kids had a good one. I really didn't want to do it at all last year and just wanted to stay in bed. Last year was our first without Ruby and it was just so hard to get through it. But somehow we did.

Our tree is toddler proofed this year. All the ornaments are at the top of the tree!! LOL So our tree looks kinda funny. We have decided to not put an angel on this year b/c our angel is not with us but with her Saviour instead.

So, here is the Christmas tree in all it's glory!!

A Successful Molt

Whoooo Hoooo!!! My biggest crab Rico had a successful molt. I'm so excited for him. He was down for 4 weeks, and made a brief appearance last night for some food and water and now he's back under ground chilling. He has lots of new hair all over his body and has nice sharp, pointy little ends on his legs.

Rico is the hermit crab I've been able to bond with the most. He doesn't shy away when I go to the tank, he'll go to where I am and tap on the glass. He loves to be held and I can handfeed him all kinds of food. His favourite is to have yogurt off of a chopstick and then try to steal the chopstick from me with his big pincher, he has a REALLY strong grip!!

So, I'm super stoked that he had a successful molt and I can't wait for him to fully get his energy back so that we can go back to bonding hehe