Missing Sweet Ruby

I definately find that late at night are the times when I really miss Ruby the most. I think a lot of that has to do with no matter what time I would put her to bed, she would always wake up at 3am to jump in her crib, then she would want a bottle. I miss those times so much. I miss snuggling with her as she had a bottle, holding her in my arms and most of the time she would fall asleep between Daniel and I. She was a beautiful sleeper. Such contendness in her face, she would often face me and snuggle right up with me. Her hand would be on my chest, right where my tattoo of her hand is.

I remember in the last few weeks when she was alive that I would go in to find her in the morning and she would be missing, I knew Exactly where she was. I'd go into her room and she would snuggled up with her sister. I wish to this day that I had a picture of the two of them snuggled up. I often wonder if she knew that she was going to die soon and just wanted to snuggle with her sister. I'll never know those answers until I see her again. I wish that that time would come soon but know it won't happen anytime soon, there is just so much for me to do while I am still alive.

I'm going to go get some sleep, big day ahead of us. Daniel, Melody, her friend Faith and I are going to see Judy and David at the theatre. It's going to be so much fun!!