Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year

I have had a rough couple of days and it's hard for me to celebrate the beginning of a new year without my sweet Ruby. It's just another reminder that another year has gone by without her here and that unfortunately life goes on, whether we are ready or not. It's hard for me to fathom that in less than 2 months my sweet Roo has been gone for 3 years. Has it really been that long? I still remember all the details about the night I held her in my arms as her heart stopped and I gave her over to Jesus. I wish so often that there was a different outcome, no matter how she would have turned out; but I know she is safe in the arms of our Saviour, waiting for me, and i will spend eternity with her. It still hurts like hell not having her here and there are so many reminders of her in things Mel and AiAi do.

Pray for our family this year. I am trying so hard not to be bitter but that seems to be where I've come back to in my grief. I know it's only a momentary feeling and I will get through this. Blessings.