Aizen's New Hat!!

I was making a hat earlier this week and asked Daniel if I could see if it fit his head. I have a small head and needed a model LOL. He liked the hat I was making and asked if he could have it. So, then I thought it would be cute to make Aizen a matching one.

I still need to get a picture of the two of them wearing their hat, but here is Aizen in his.

Merry Christmas Sweet Roo!!

It's our first Christmas without our sweet Ruby. It's been a bittersweet yet joyful morning. It was hard to get out of bed and open the presents but we did for the kids. We bought a present for each of the kids from Ruby and they both love our choices.

I wish more than anything that Ruby were here, running around excited with a present or wrapping paper in her hand. She used to love the bows on the presents and I remember last year being at my inlaws waiting on my brother in law to get there. Ruby was crouched down looking under the tree, totally in awe of the presents, and picking the bows off of the presents. She had quite the little collection by the end of it.

I would give anything to have more memories like that of her. She was such a curious little girl and it will be hard going over to my inlaws this afternoon, knowing she won't be there to run around with the wrapping paper like last year. I know it will be a good time but how I wish she could be with us. I love you precious Roo Roo. ((((hugs and kissies)))) ~~ mommy

Aizen Sporting Mommy's Hat

I've been making preemie hats for the last few years and this last year I have been playing around with a new pattern. I've been making some hats for preemies, newborns and cancer patients at Sick Kids. I finished this one up today and decided to try it on Aizen. He's so stinking cute. So, thought I would show off one of my hats.

I need to get some more "boyish" colours and make him a few hats to sport around the house and while shopping as I carry him in the meitai.

Elf Yourself

On one of my mommy boards, there was a link to this site. WAY TOO FUNNY!!!!

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1485188732

You just upload your pictures and fiddle with the face til you have it how you want... and well, just go check it out.

Parent Card

We are giving presents in Ruby's memory to some children at Sick Kids. I wanted to put in the card a little note for the parents. And here it is.

Nursing Is A Work Of Heart

This is our first Christmas without Ruby. The money we would have spent on her presents were spent on presents for some children at Sick Kids. We'll be going down next week to meet with Darcy (the bereavement co-ordinator) there and giving her the gifts and also some hats that I have crocheted.

Today it has been 10 months since Ruby died, I made her a page earlier before my therapy session. Tonight I got thinking of our time at Sick Kids and have been wanting to do something special for the nurses in the CCU (critical care unit). The night before she died, we pretty much knew that she would not pass the brain stem tests that were to be repeated in the morning. The nurses that we had treated our baby with such love and care, even though.

One moment in particular comes to mind. I was lying in bed with her and the nurse was checking on Roo. She found that Ruby's mouth was dry and she got a little swab and some water and wet the inside of her mouth. It touched me so much that even though we knew, they still treated her as if she were going to make it. Would moistening her mouth have helped her? Probably not, but the caliber of staff at Sick Kids is AMAZING!!!

So I will be getting a mat and doing this scrapbook page to give to them next Wednesday when we go down there. I thought I would share it with you. Just click on it to see the details and read the message.

Please leave a comment if you would. I enjoy reading your comments on here and they really do brighten up my day.

Muskoka Roo Roo Mini Mosaic

I just finished up another mini mosaic project today. It is based off of the picture below of Roo up in Muskoka and her first time loving the sand. I didn't take hourly progression shots like last time, but this one took around 55 hours to do.

Can't wait to get it matted, framed and hung on the wall.

No Longer Scrapbook Page

This is a picture of Roo blowing me kisses under the table after finishing off some cheerios.

No Longer

No Longer ~ December 6, 2007

Ruby red lips,
Eyes sparkling blue.
Sweet chubby cheeks,
No longer have you.

Innocent look,
Arms open wide.
Open lip kisses,
No longer by my side.

Look of curiosity,
Into everything.
Humming instead of words,
No longer will you sing.

Wobbily fast walk,
Always running away.
Chasing after you,
No longer will you stay.

Eating cheerios,
Hiding under table.
Blowing mommy kisses,
No longer are you able.

Joyous laughter,
Taking off your bib.
Waking at 3 am,
No longer jumping in your crib.

Snuggles on the couch,
Falling asleep in the car.
Stealing baby kissies,
No longer pointing at the stars.

Licking the windows,
Blanket peek a boo.
My heart forever aches,
No longer have I you.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

I love you sweet Ruby and wish so badly to have you back in my arms. To smell your hair one more time, to look in your eyes, to touch your cheek and give you kissies.

Eat Mor Chikin!!

So ... I got bored today and was looking through my files and found some cow pictures.

I LOVE cows, one of my favourite things to collect etc. So, I made a video.

Click on this link ---> LINK to see it.

The song is by a group called Arrogant Worms, they're canadian and absolutely Hilarious!!!!

Precious Angel PM

I've had my eye on this Precious Moment for a few months now and it's now added to our collection. I didn't know the meaning behind it as it is a Limited Edition and wasn't on the PM website. It represents an angel holding the Saviour on His first night here on earth.

For me, it reminds me that when Ruby can't sit in her Saviour's lap, there is always an angel that will hold her and make her feel safe until I can see her again. It brings me great comfort knowing that she is being taken care of and she is where I yearn and strive to be.

Playing In The Flowers

With the scrapbooks I have been ordering, they come with 8x8 white paper. I have given these to Melody to make special pictures for Ruby to put in a scrapbook. Melody is also making a scrapbook of her memories of Ruby as part of her recovery. I want her to have a special place for her memories of her sister. I know that I don't remember much about when I was 5 years old, and I want to preserve as many of those memories that she has now.

This is a picture she made this morning for Ruby. It's of Ruby in Heaven. She is picking flowers in a garden. This is often how I think of Ruby, she was always picking grass and getting into flowers that she shouldn't have been in.

So, I asked Melody if I could share her picture, so here it is. This is how Melody sees her little sister.